Deep Inside Me

Salam.

I've been very clueless this recently. Feeling of emptiness in my heart. I feel lost sometimes. I want to change myself to be a better person. Be a better me. But it's hard. It's like I want but I can't. So, I wrote this poem. InsyaAllah, one day, I'll make a video about this poem, so that it can be more interesting and can give benefits to others as well. Tihee~

I have spent almost 21 years looking for myself,

Struggling in a world of confusion and loneliness.

Like a blind man on the edge of a cliff,

I step away from eternity not knowing which way to go.

Here alone I stand,

With no one by my side,

Alone with holding no one's hand,

I Myself must find

Now as I set out,

Wondering down an open road.

I Myself start to doubt,

As I carry this heavy load

I realize I am lost,

But not a soul is near,

What will it cost,

To get rid of all this fear.

Finding myself in my very own soul,

Searching for Your Redho and Nur,

Finding the meaning of what it implied.

I’ve been hiding my tears inside,

So that no one will notice this,

But I know exactly that you will.

I was not strong enough Ya Allah,

But never I stop begging you to give me strength,

Now I am alone,

As I drop down on my knees,

I asked for your guidance,

By saying "Please Ya Allah, Please",

Please show me who I am,

May Allah give me strength to overcome this. Ameen~